AHEM!!

Alright alright, far be it that I should be the one apologising to others, but if you were following this blog early last year before I deleted most of it, then you'll be aware that some are due. Moreover, that clearly too, what began as as my attempting to humour things from metaphorical/hypothetical perspectives descended into the realms of absolute lunacy. Hardly surprising really given that for the second time in my life now, I, "the regretful author", was at the time entertaining something of a psychotic episode. I'd like too to be able to attribute this purely to the gawd awful crap I'm implanted with, but in truth I cannot, because it's no coincidence that I slipped into said delusional state off of the back of smoking "Skunk Weed" spliffs every half an hour or so for weeks. It's not only this, but any form of drug that reacts to whatever exactly is in my head, as I cannot even take strong painkillers without often suffering severe side effects such as hallucinations - and I was experiencing audio hallucinations at this time. Idiotic behaviour though because I'm very aware of this factor; but particularly given that my initial intentions in producing this blog were to try and convince people that my circumstances are a 'reality' and in doing so perhaps gain some support by 'credibly' stating my case. I was left feeling suitably ashamed given the obscene nature of what I wrote, though clearly in my defence a plea of temporary insanity would carry a motion. :-)


It's not that there wasn't any method to my madness though, as, if I'd continued writing, I'd have explained my attacking world leaders and public figures in the manner that I did, was to ultimately convey that it was merely tantamount to exactly what had been done to me historically via official sources. And of course to highlight - so far as the world leaders are concerned that is - that they are fully aware of what is happening to targets such as me and therefore must indeed be complicit with it. I just couldn't see it through because I'd gone too far; things had ceased to be funny and become distasteful.

To support this here's the first paragraph of what was to be my next post:

So ... what did I make objectively of what I've been writing then?

Ahem ... erghmn, well, do I think I'm immortal? No I don't! Do I believe everything I've written is true and in tune with reality? No I don't! Do I believe that definitive answers as to what exactly the nature of the implants that have been placed inside of me are could easily be established, and, that the reasons behind why I've been treated so horrendously and illegally by the authorities could be too? Yes I do!

None the less, seemingly, the only damage done was to myself and indirectly maybe to other poor souls out there struggling for credulity who are wrestling with, and even dying under, the same system of electronic persecution. Yeah ... of course I was attempting to draw attention to myself in taking things to such extremes, I really can be an amusing bastard at times and I thought by attempting to entertain I would possibly gain more attention than if I stuck to the straight and narrow. Well I was wrong, but excuse me if I don't continue beating myself up over it, because I am implanted with tortuous mind control technology and I would defy 'anybody' to remain sane at all, let alone on a permanent basis if exposed to even a fraction of what I've been forced to endure year - after year - after year - after year. Read other peoples accounts on the internet regarding the facets of the type of technology I'm implanted with and that I'm targeted by, and you'll learn that the perpetrators behind it are not only able to manipulate and control a persons emotions and behaviourisms, but amongst other things 'induce' a psychotic state as well. As I've said though, stupid me for thinking I could get away with indulging in something which very noticeably has an immediate injurious effect on my mental functioning, and I will point out too, increases the pain I suffer from markedly instantly to boot.


Needless to say I kicked the grass into touch and everything did settle back down once I had. Rest assured mind that this technology is a quantifiable fact, both that it exists and that I'm implanted with it. I haven't been inactive since either and have continued to pursue matters through official channels. I now have it in writing from a very highly qualified doctor that what's showing on my scans, and what he's palpated at the back of my mouth, are definitely foreign bodies and I have had further scans taken which clearly show the presence of them from other angles as well. Things are progressing, far too slowly, but they are; and the latest correspondence I've received from a surgeon I paid for an opinion from states that I need to be referred to a Neurosurgeon. Doctors will just not commit to helping me, or 'generally' even put anything definitive down in writing and simply continue to pass the book. A Consultant Radiologist I met with agreed to help me and then subsequently - as has happened all too often once I've spoken with professionals and they've viewed my evidence - became, along with the hospital manager that introduced me to him, inaccessible, refusing thereafter to give a diagnosis at all. No joke this is it?

Anyhow ... I truly am sorry for using peoples names in previous text and for some of the unfounded, unsubstantiated statements I made about them - well, ridiculous, ludicrous and libellous ones really - but this doesn't change the reasons as to why I can lose the plot to that degree. Believe me, if I weren't implanted and effected as I am, you can bet your bottom dollar I wouldn't be wasting my life writing about such awful subject matter and would be out there enjoying it instead. 'Percentage potential equals time spent there' as far as I'm concerned. I lived by those words for years but I don't have a life to speak of any more, just horrendous pain and a one man war to fight against an invisible enemy. Against powers beyond my control and even my comprehension in all honesty. Against paradoxical issues, state systems, people within them protected by impunity and in possession of absolute power; military, governmental and corporate entities that exist purposefully only as enigmas that will never publicly admit to much of what they're responsible for and are planning, because it's so sinister and gut churning there'd be civil unrest and rioting on an unprecedented scale all over the globe if they were to.


Best most stick to reading the celebrity gossip pages I suppose - as reality, and our vulnerability and inability to do anything about it, hurts don't it?

"Long-time victims of brainwave manipulation may generally be distinguished from the superficially similar schizophrenic pattern which, while it also "hears voices", exhibits dissociation etc., is also accompanied by rapid verbal dysfunction - the speech pattern itself becomes dissociated, neologisms intrude constantly and there’s every indication from this that the actual thinking of the schizophrenic is aberrant. On the contrary, a mind/control victim even if he ultimately snaps under stress and shoots up a McDonald’s continues to display the capacity of coherent thinking as reflected in his speech patterns".

All I need add to the above statement I'd say is that nobody I'm confronted by regularly is of the opinion I'm displaying any abnormal personality traits whatsoever.

Please, follow this link below, it's an article by a lady that explains what I've been touching on, only more expertly and eloquently.



http://www.btinternet.com/~psycho_social/Vol3/JPSS-CS2.html